2.28.10

I figured out what freaks me out about marriage. Getting married is equivalent to saying "I have found what I'm looking for. I am done looking. I am off the market. Forever." I just love love too much to say that right now. I want to always be open to new love. But if I want kids I will get married. I think.

2.23.10

So I'm a teacher. And lately this unrelenting emphasis on standardized testing has really been getting to me. It's like the powers that be are absolutely content sucking all creativity and curiosity out of learning. Take out childlike wonder, working together, and laughter, and replace with memorized test "strategies," every student an island, and the notion of school as serious serious ("If you do not pass this test you will not move on to the next grade"). I'm thinking some more non-traditional educational outlet may be calling my name...

2.22.10

I'm thirty years old and I can't commit. Not to a career, not to a city, and -until recently- not to a man. I'm constantly wondering what else is out there... if I might be happier or better suited for some other job, some other city, or some other man. Lately, I've made "create the life you want to live" my motto. This is my quest to make that happen.